Weekly photo challenge … Time
I have unstable relationship with time; although that is improving. It has been a difficult part of my depression; it is often used as a weapon for my self abuse.
“You will sit there until this or that is finished” was a well tuned exclamation of my mother when I had not done as I should. I continue this ingrained mantra long after she has died, on myself; just in case I forget not to be lazy!
This abusive act is not only mentally harmful it has become physically so; I now have a serious back problem. I can no longer sit or stand for more than a few minutes without pain.
At first I had to use timers to ensue I didn’t overstretch myself. I have a pinger that is not only ugly to look at has a rather bullying tone.
Egg timers are attractive and gentle reminders that time is passing.
Fortunately, observing this obsessive and harmful misuse of time has relieved me of some anxiety, more important I have learned that time is my friend and loves to be enjoyed not endured.